I would just like to start off by saying I’m sorry. To every girl like me, who hurts, and suffers, for false hope of a good man. I’m sorry that you’re unfortunate enough to know how this fucking feels.
Why is it so hard for them? Why does it come off as completely impossible for a man to be thoughtful? Do you think we just forget the hurtful things you say, the wonderful things you promise, the little things we never forget to do for you? Does it really seem so right to make us feel so small, useless, and uninteresting in return? Because what we want is miniscule compared to what we DO to just earn it. What we want is just a little appreciation. What we want is a promise kept, and maybe a warning to these little mood swings you never prepare us for. You think we’re bad?? You know, some of us just may be. Some of us lying, cheating, promiscuous types might just deserve the pain. But when you know we dont, you know we dont.
Aside from that, please save me the “victimized” approach. Oh blah blah, men haters, we’re not all like that.. Here’s a little insight to you victimized men.. Do you honestly think most of us would be so hurt and hateful against men if we hadn’t been given reason to be? Why be so bitter towards something you had no experience in? Yes I’ve had experience, and in my experience I’ve found that I’ve put all of me into relationships, all of me into making a man happy. And I was always promised the same thing in the beginning. “Megan, you deserve the best, to be treating like the queen you are. I can be that person.” Fuck you. You’re all the same in the beginning aren’t you, but my love doesn’t stop. My little notes, long massages for you after MY long day, always thinking of you, catering for you, making sure every waking moment for you is a pleasant one, just to be ignored, forgotten about, and hurt. And all the while thinking, “wait, you promised so much different.”
Do me a favor, do us all a favor.. Get the fuck over yourself and remember that she hurts too. She could use a back rub, a little note, a little attention here or there. For fuck sake we don’t ask for too much. Hardly anything at all. You’re the ones who are impossible to please. Fuck popular belief that women are difficult to please, hard to impress. NOTHING is good enough for you. Nothing is enough to earn just some of your time. Some of your respect. Something??? So the next time you’re taking out the garbage, or you’re driving home from work, or doing as much as sitting outside for a cigarette, try taking 2 seconds out of your life to pick a nearby flower, or grabbing her favorite candy bar on your stop for gas. You wouldn’t believe how happy the tiny things make us. Especially if you don’t do them often. Watch her eyes light up when you just do as much as simply… remembering.
I remember writing this..
